At roughly 45, after more than 20 years of advancing my career and eventually earning around $250,000 a year, I found myself asking an embarrassing question:
How had I gotten this far and still not managed to fill all the financial buckets I was supposed to be filling?
Retirement. College. Emergency savings. Insurance. The mortgage. Property taxes. Family expenses. And taxes taking their share before most of those buckets even got a chance.
I contributed to all of them.
I did what I could, when I could.
I just never seemed able to get all of them where they needed to be at the same time.
I know how that sounds. $250,000 is a lot of money.
This is not a story about hardship. That is part of what made the realization so uncomfortable.
There was no obvious financial train wreck to blame. No boat. No second home. No obvious financial blowup. We were still living in the house we had bought as our starter home.
I had a good career, a great family, and a life I was fortunate to have.
So how the hell were so many of the buckets still short?
College was the one that really got me.
I had been putting money into a 529 for years. Then my oldest got close enough to college that I stopped thinking about it as some future expense and started looking at actual tuition, housing, food and fees.
The numbers were much bigger than the account.
That one hit harder than I expected.
I remember sitting there with a knot in my stomach thinking:
I should have done more.
Not because my kid wasn't going to college. We weren't facing a catastrophe.
It was the feeling that I had spent years trying to do what a responsible father was supposed to do, and when the moment arrived, one of the most important buckets still wasn't full.
My response was almost automatic:
Make more money.
That had been the answer for most of my working life.
Get better at what I do. Take on more responsibility. Advance. Become more valuable. Earn more.
Then use the increase to solve whatever problem was next.
And for a long time, it worked.
A raise made the mortgage easier. A bonus helped with college. Another career step created more room for retirement.
So maybe the answer now was $300,000.
Then I started doing the catch-up math.
College. Retirement. Savings. Some breathing room.
Maybe $300,000 wasn't the number.
Maybe I needed to figure out how to make $500,000.
And that's when the question changed.
How long can the answer keep being “make more money”?
My numbers happen to be $250,000, $300,000 and $500,000.
Someone else might be trying to get from $100,000 to $150,000.
Someone earning $500,000 might believe $1 million is the number that finally makes everything work.
The numbers change.
The strategy doesn't.
Earn more. Catch up. Repeat.
The problem is that career advancement creates another kind of risk.
As my experience and compensation increased, the pool of jobs that made sense for me got smaller.
Earlier in my career, there were a lot of jobs I could reasonably take.
Later, there were fewer jobs that matched the experience and compensation I had spent years working toward.
That creates a strange contradiction:
Career success can increase your earning power while making that earning power harder to replace.
I had always assumed becoming more experienced and more valuable would make me more secure.
Maybe it did in some ways.
But it also left more of my financial life depending on a smaller pool of employers willing to pay for what I had become.
That bothered me.
Because I started realizing how much of my plan still depended on one thing:
the next paycheck.
Maybe the career isn't the problem.
Maybe the problem is me.
Maybe I should have saved more. Maybe I spent too much. Maybe I invested poorly. Maybe my expectations are too high.
Probably some of those things are true.
There is no point in building a theory about careers and wealth if the real answer is that I had plenty of income and didn't convert enough of it into assets.
So I want to find out.
Where did the money actually go?
How much went to taxes?
How much went to housing and raising a family?
How much did I really save?
How much should I have saved?
Was lifestyle creep a major problem, or just an easy explanation?
Were my expectations for college unrealistic?
Am I actually behind on retirement, or do I simply feel behind?
And how much of what I thought was wealth was really just the ability to earn a large paycheck?
Because those are not the same thing.
A career can produce a lot of income.
That income can create wealth.
But the income itself isn't wealth.
For most of my career, whenever I wanted more breathing room, I focused on increasing the size of the paycheck.
I spent far less time asking whether I was becoming less dependent on the paycheck itself.
At 30, that distinction didn't seem terribly important.
At 45, it does.
College isn't some distant future expense anymore.
Neither is retirement.
And I'm no longer comfortable assuming that every time the math gets uncomfortable, I'll simply advance again and somebody will pay me more.
So I've started looking outside the paycheck.
Not instead of a career.
Alongside it.
Consulting. Investing. Building something. Owning something. Maybe buying a business.
I don't know which of those will work.
I also don't know yet whether the bigger problem was my career strategy, my financial decisions, my expectations, or some combination of all three.
That's why I'm writing this.
I'm not starting The Career Wealth Gap because I figured out the secret to getting rich.
I'm starting it because I haven't.
I'm the case study.
Maybe you'll look at my numbers and conclude I'm an idiot. Maybe I'll reach the same conclusion.
Or maybe we'll discover that a lot of us have spent decades getting better at earning money without ever asking whether we were becoming less dependent on earning it.
I genuinely don't know.
But I'm going to investigate it.
The career.
The spending.
The taxes.
The savings.
The investments.
The college bills.
The decisions I made—and the ones I didn't.
Maybe the career was bullshit.
Maybe my expectations were bullshit.
Maybe I've been bullshitting myself.
We'll see.
First, I need to figure out where the hell the money went.
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Some personal details have been generalized or changed to protect privacy. The financial questions and experiences described here are real.